Have you ever had something happen that just stops you in your tracks? that makes you really stop and evaluate your life, yourself?
I had that moment in the past few days and it's left me shaken. Making me really take a look in the mirror and ask myself, how can I change to strive to be better?
The last few years have taken a toll on me. I'm almost wondering if I had a mini-mid-mid life crisis or something. I've behaved in ways that I thought I outgrew with highschool. Ways that if someone else were acting that way I'd be the first one to point the finger. You know the saying, people in glass houses shouldn't throw stones...yeah, I need to remember that.
I won't go into huge details but let's just say I realized this past week that I was thinking a lot about a former friend. a former best friend. one that was there for me through tons. who no matter how childish I behaved was always there ready to forgive me and move on.
I hurt her bad--in every way. Who am I? I don't do those things. but I did. I took the step to apologize to her but that can't undo what's been done.
I am taking this as a learning tool and am going to strive to get back to the person I know I am. One who doesn't play games, one who is really a good friend through thick and thin and one who doesn't think the grass is greener on the other side because it's not.
Just had to share because maybe there's someone in your life that you haven't spoken to that you miss...why not take the steps to rebuild that friendship or at least let that person know that you were wrong and apologize.