Saturday, July 27, 2013

A realization

Have you ever had something happen that just stops you in your tracks? that makes you really stop and evaluate your life, yourself? 

I had that moment in the past few days and it's left me shaken. Making me really take a look in the mirror and ask myself, how can I change to strive to be better?

The last few years have taken a toll on me. I'm almost wondering if I had a mini-mid-mid life crisis or something. I've behaved in ways that I thought I outgrew with highschool. Ways that if someone else were acting that way I'd be the first one to point the finger. You know the saying, people in glass houses shouldn't throw stones...yeah, I need to remember that.

I won't go into huge details but let's just say I realized this past week that I was thinking a lot about a former friend. a former best friend. one that was there for me through tons. who no matter how childish I behaved was always there ready to forgive me and move on.

I hurt her bad--in every way. Who am I? I don't do those things. but I did. I took the step to apologize to her but that can't undo what's been done.

I am taking this as a learning tool and am going to strive to get back to the person I know I am. One who doesn't play games, one who is really a good friend through thick and thin and one who doesn't think the grass is greener on the other side because it's not.

Just had to share because maybe there's someone in your life that you haven't spoken to that you miss...why not take the steps to rebuild that friendship or at least let that person know that you were wrong and apologize.


Heidi Brawley said...

Take care doll!!! Hope everything works out for the Best!!! hugs, heidi

Julie Tucker-Wolek said...

Hugs!! I hope it all turns out well!!

simplybren said...

I am so very sorry that you find yourself here. I hope in time your friend will find it within herself to forgive you. But most importantly you must forgive yourself and move forward. You have much to gain from future relationships armed with this lesson. You have a beautiful spirit and we are honored to call you friend.

Christine Riley said...

Hi Danni, hugs to you! I know I've been here before in my past. All we can do is learn from our mistakes, try to make amend and move on as best we can. Hugs!

Patti J said...

I think we've all been in this place at some point in our lives, Danni. You are a good person, and such a bright spot to all of us out here in cyberspace! Forgive yourself, sweetie, and move on from here. Keep reaching out to your friend now and then, and hopefully, someday, she'll realize what's important, and forgive and forget. Hugs...

Karen Wilson said...

Hi Danni,

I think we've all been here at one point in our lives and I think the biggest step in making it right is to admit we were wrong in the first place and then work on apologizing, making it right. You're an amazing person and I believe, in time, your friend will see and remember that. Hugs to you ..


June Houck said...

Hi Danni, there are times in the past when I wish I could kick myself for the same thing. YOU are a sweet of the sweetest. I hope you can forgive yourself; stand up, dust off yourself, and go confidently as the wonderful person that you truly are. I adore you :)

Stef H said...

yes. i've been there, made my apologies, was told i was forgiven and all was well and then we went our separate ways and we haven't spoken in over 20 yrs. but the memories are fabulous!

sometimes we hurt people unintentionally and tho the words cannot be taken back, you can - over time - forgive yourself as that other person will forgive you too.

we all have our days. you will be fine.

Cynthia said...

First, I want to say thank you for having the courage to just put it out there. Bare yourself to all of us. That in and of itself is a big step to take. Changing oneself begins with realizing that there is something about ourselves we would like to change. You have faced that head on. So from there, the going gets easier. I pray that you are successful in whatever changes you feel the desire to make. Also that your friend see the truth in your change and accept and forgive you. I wish the best for you in each and every relationship you have, as change in one area affects all areas of your life. Hugs and prayers for you. :)


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